learn before you love .

I haven't met EVERY GUY on this planet but the dudes I ran across havent kept my attention to long. smh I'm not saying that they are all the same becuz that is not true; but they seem to have similar qualities for example: leading girls on, lying about simple shxxt, cases of amnesia, Bipolar disorder the list goes on. I don't understand what it is. I have been single for a while now, there have been breezys here and their but ehhh nothing to die for. Its like as soon as I think we goin good POOF VAMOOSE son of a ....... Its starting to seem like I have bad luck in this department; or maybe its jus cuh im so self sufficient that I push ppl away idk. I mean when I like someone and I see potential in that person I try my best to help them see the same thing, my feelings grow fast and once they're are evident there is no going back. I try and build friendship b4 all that otha shxxt. Sometimesz it may be that either we not on tha same page or dude way ahead of me . I'm tired of it to be honest; its suppose to be 50 50 but when you searchin dude 50% comes up missin` . smdh I've made the mistake of going out with someone younger and that was a ................learning experience; nd also talking to someone that was a little older that happend to be a funny experience. I second guess myself so much. I have a very STRONG conscious; I don't make moves fast I'm sorry.....but then agian I shouldn't have to apologize, Boys should be willing to earn the prize not think that we owe it to them or that they deserve it cuh mayyyn FYL!!! I guess I just want someone who knows alot abt me; someone I could kick back and chill with, act stupid,have fun and manages to look past all my loose screws. Isn't that what evryone wants we all want that "somebody" and to me you have to be willing to knw abt that person inside and out to get a good understanding on them then maybe we could work our way up to the next level but dnt jus think cuz we've chilled a couple times that we crushin..cuz only thing gettin crushed is ya dreamsss daddy. call me "old fashioned" wutevaa jus knw that it aint goin down like that

I aint requestin anyone thats perfect, I just want a man who will make it all worth it"- Drake