September 27, 2010 10:14 pm

Fuckkkkkkk is good blog spot? Damn its been long almost a year correct? Ever since I got exposed to tumblr I haven't blogged anywhere else. I even forgot that I had a blog spot account but here you are, sitting exactly how I left you! untouched and pure<3> xoxo Chelline♥

Thrill of it Thrill of it

Say that it's love, but to me it's looking counterfeit, I get done with one and move on to another bitch!

okayyyyy!

blog spot "/

I'm sorry I've abandoned you. blame Tumblr! lol

you see

When I met you, I was just a kid, hadn't built up my defenses. So I gave my heart completely, vaseline over the lenses. Memories don't go away, I remember everyday. I never ever stop wondering, wondering if you still think of us. I don't need a photograph 'cause you've never left my mind. No, you've never left my mind.

take me away .

"We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier. Sometimes we find our own way out. But regardless, always, we are found."

Pce.-

Even tho blogspot has been good to me ; I fell in love w/tumblr. {thnxx alex}
Im going to try to keep up w/my blogspot but I doubt it.

Check me out :]

http://chellineinwonderland.tumblr.com/

Do I Offend You?

I'm tired of you fxxckn w/my life.
It's MY turn :]

In the words of Chelline ;

All I want is for him to love me. In the morning and night. When I'm the biggest bxtch or act like a total baby. When my hair is fxckd up nd no make-up ; when I get mad cuz things don't go my way. When I've had too much nd feel like giving up. When its that time of the month and when I need a simple favor. I need him to keep me going, I need his comfort to make me feel safe. I need to hear him tell me "everythings gonna be okay". I wont lose faith I know I'll find him. I have the rest of my life ahead of me....right? I would like for him to mean what he says. He doesn't have to be perfect but god make him fine! I'm afraid that if I find him I'll do some dumb shxt to push him away. That he won't be feeling my attitude or that I argue a lot and he can't take it. That I complain and can't handle "tough love" I'm just afraid to be alone ; but the thought of being vulnerable scares me shxtless. I'm not suppose to want a "man" this much or need anyone for that matter. I guess I never really learned to love. I waisted my time thinking negative abt love that when it was real I took it for granted. I guess I let my chances slip by. Will I get a second,third,fourth chance? Love never dies right? I'm willing to learn anything if it brings me closer to that feeling agian! willing to wear my heart on my sleeve and jump head 1st. everyone wants that. EVERYONE wants something. something they can't have the impossible.
These days I've been second guessing myself and the feelings of others. I don't believe it when a guy flat out tells me he's into me. I call his bluff! I don't believe when he says "Im think abt yu" or "I miss you" because in my eyes nobody feels that way abt me. I would love to have a "someone" but the reality is it dosent happen like that for all. I like the struggle ; the toughness and challenges I go through because I know it's preparing me for the real thing. wether it be tmrw , nxt week or 2yrs from now. I'll be ready.

-Pete Wentz

"Girls are like apples...the best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when, in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree..."