i feel numb to everything.

My heart has gotten tired
but its still beating baby.

Pain is a small thingg.to a Giant;

My eyes burning frm all the dirt&tha debris.
I sometimes find myself drifting off into my own world; i can blankly stare out into
space with a million thoughtsz running through my mind with all this bull$hxxt around me.
My iPod be on full blast I walk with my head high;phone in my hand, one the outside Im pretty normal; but you couldn't imagine my worldd.
I've been told countless times that I'm weird. and I 1000% agree
If you knw me then you'd knw Im Loud,Outspoken,Strongly opinionated,Funny,Smart,talented blahblahblah. But if your just meeting me I remain QuietandShy. I'm more of an observer I analyze you frm your style to the way you act around me. &&.then from that instance I can tell whether I'm gonna like you or not. evn tho ppl have grown on me I'm quick to cut ppl off. eva heard "Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me". You get once chance when it comes to me and by gods grace yu may get a 2nd but yu qotta workkkkkkkkkk hard.

I don't play well with others =X i can literally count my friends one both my hands and thats abt it these others are only acquaintances; hi&&bye sortof thing.
the only people I need and have are blood related!
Me and females don't really get along the girls that are my friends now
have remained tha same and proven to me that they're not tha fugazy type.
Im jus to raw for these simple hoe$z *shrugs*
[to be continued.......]

Green Light

D r E a m s

In the future I'd like:
To be a bartender
To be a Flight Attendant
To be A Photographer
To Be In the fashion industry
To be a Celebrity Hair stylist/Make-up artist
To be a Singer
To be a Journalist
to take my wela to Puerto Rico
Have so much fun; to have stories to tell my children
To get Married =x
have a bomb ass sneaker collection



Coulda let the dream killers, kill my self esteem, Or use the arrogance as a steam that power my dreams - Kanye

Conceit is Self-given, Be Careful

I cant speak for you but ehh me?!! Im abt to turn 18 in two months. I have a wholeee new mind set. I let go of the drama all my OLD baggage sorta like a new me but not really cuh it'll be a lie if I sed I done changed up. Ima always be m o y a <3 Im startin to see what "growin up" really meansz, I done graduated high school and aint lookin back. Best 4 yrs as they say and I agree though I had my share of bullshxxt&dick lickersz I wouldnt trade it may change a few thingsz but it is what it is . I crossed that stage; best day/feeling of my LIFE!!! Back to life. i stay seperated from most cuh the peoplesz I qot now are the onlyy onesz I need.they've provin that to me! New face,New Case is how I see it;; surround myself with positive people, ones who qot qoalsz and aint around for Bullshxxt. can't have no-one tryna brinq me down!! Boy friend? dont qot one of those cuz the onesz I did qive chances to Crumbled under pressure. Or maybe I became a problem wuteva the reason may be this barbie is ken-less [hmmsz.] I came alonqqqq way from where I was ; the top feel sooooo much BETTER than the bottom . Tryna better myself for my fam[ily] and mostly myself. Im truely blessed!